20 October 2010

Spirit Day 2010

The first time I was bullied, I was in the 4th grade. I was harassed and nearly beaten up by a 6th grader who had been held back twice.

When I was in the 6th grade, my little league coach repeatedly berated me for being a "girl" due to my lack of athletic prowess.

When I was in high school I was called "fag" not only behind my back but to my face.

I was 16 when I tried to commit suicide.

I've been there. I know what it is like to feel different and alone and frightened and hopeless. I know what it is like to be the outsider, to be talked about, shunned, ridiculed, made fun of, and physically and verbally bullied.


Please believe that. It doesn't mean it gets easier. But it gets a hell of a lot better. Believe in yourself. Call the Trevor Project (866-488-7386). They will help.

You are you: unique, beautiful, and very much loved. Give yourself a chance - and the rest of us who have survived - the opportunity to experience you. Stick around. You'll be glad you did.



Stan said...

Your so right Mark it does get better. I wasn't bullied in grade or high school but heard the word "faggot" said a lot back then and always thought to myself "if they only knew." I thought of suicide also (who doesn't) but somehow I got through it alone and proud of who I am. It takes time but it does get better.
Today we remember those who didn't make it. R.I.P.

Nik_TheGreek said...

It really does get better...

Mark in DE said...

Beautiful post!! I'm glad you're still here. :-)

Wonder Man said...

Mark, thank you for share your story. I'm glad you are still around

CJ/Rick said...

Great post Mark. I can relate to much of what you posted which probably explains why I'm considered a bully of a boss now?? It does get better.
You look sharp in the picture.

Cubby said...

Oh Mark, I feel so bad for you for going through those tough teenage years. I'm glad you survived and flourished.

My two biggest bullies were my father and my brother. The kids at school were a close third. It's no wonder so many gay kids feel there is no where to turn and no way out of their despair. Thank god for groups like the Trevor project to help today's youth.

Michael Rivers said...

Thanks for sharing your story. It does get better!

David Dust said...

You are proof that it DOES get better. Imagine if that 16-year-old Mark boy would be able to see you now ... I bet he'd be quite proud of his future self.