Back in 1990, a palm reader at Renaissance Faire told me I spend too much time in my head. In fact, this is the first thing she told me when she took my hands into hers. It's very true. So here's what's got this Behr thinkin:I'm anxious about my friend's visit. I worry that he won't have a good time, that he'll hate my home and the food I prepare, that it isn't clean enough or that Winston will hiss and growl at him. I know he's an easy-to-please guy - minds out of the gutter, please - and not demanding or high-maintenance. But I tend to over do it when playing "Mrs. Sally Adams". (Trivia quiz time! Who is Mrs. Sally Adams? First correct commenter will get something not very valuable.)
I'm also thinking a lot about a particular someone. *sigh* Yes, the Behr has started to develop feelings for someone. And those feelings are generating from somewhere north of the beltline. It's a bit complicated and lately this object of my affection has been a bit distant. I keep trying to rationalize his behavior but then I worry that the opportunity has passed. One of my failures in my other relationships (you know who I'm talking about, if not click here) is I tend to become a helicopter boyfriend, always hovering, always asking if everything is ok, misinterpreting everything, and developing huge green eyes. I was bound and determined not to that this time around. Old habits die hard.
I'm also thinking a lot about how much I want to give up my house and move. This home ownership on a single salary is crazy. And none of my friends get it because they live in two-income homes. I know there are tax advantages to owning property but it's getting more and more difficult. Maybe it's my continuing battle with the ants or the heat/humidity or just the fact that I'm lazy and want someone else to cook and clean. Maybe I ought to stop looking at bears and start looking at chaser houseboys who can cook, clean, do laundry, and light yardwork. Any volunteers?
I'm sure there's more on my mind. Right now though, that's enough. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. You're all a great support system.
BEHR HUGS!!
5 comments:
I know how you feel when it comes to asking if everything is ok and making sure everything is just right. I used to do the same until I realized that men aren't babies or kids, that they will say if something isn't right. You are a very caring person just try to step back and enjoy the time with your friend instead of always being one step ahead of him to plan things out. Nothing in life goes according to plan so through your map away and start living. You will find someone who will stand beside you and help take the burden off someday. *hint* stop looking and start living, trust me when I say that guys hate to be ignored and will notice.
You are Little Mr. Worry, aren't you? I'm not sure how you can overcome that to be honest, but you need to start thinking more positively. I'm pretty sure you'll have an amazing time with your friend. Keep us posted.
Regarding 'someone' I'm not sure what to say. You could discuss it with him and he could be more reassuring. It's not that much of trouble...
I haven't mentioned it before but my boyfriend is a bit like that. He lost his brother in a traffic accident years ago. Since then I believe he changed and he as well worries now way too much about almost everything. He even has nightmares showing unfounded worries. The only thing I can do is try to reassure him that everything will be fine and remind him to simply 'breath' sometimes...
OMG! We are so much a like. I worry about the littlest shit too.
Try to follow LovelessOso's advice at least.
Do you have room for a cubby bear? I don't mind cooking and washing dishes at all.
And speaking of having a friend come visit, I've been waiting patiently by my mailbox every day for the last two years wondering where my invitation was. Hmmmph!
Have fun with your friend, and don't get into any big trouble at Disneyland.
just chill and have a good time. Try not to worry too much
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